It’s 4:44 and I’m drowning

Drowning in boxes, drowning in sorrow. Call it seasonal depression, call it my life. Another day, another day. How the sun and moon revolve around one another playing flirtatious games with my heart. It’s 4:44 and nights of no matter run on and on through my mind. People I have no care for; moments notContinue reading “It’s 4:44 and I’m drowning”

Your Existence Matters

For so long now, I believed that I had come to terms with my presence here on Earth. Originally, it wasn’t even a thing I pondered. Around the time I hit my preteen to teen years, I was personally going through a lot. Between having an unstable home and school life, I went through periodsContinue reading “Your Existence Matters”

This morning I didn’t know how to get up

There’s something in the morning that always gets us to get out of bed. I say this as I lay in mine, deciding when to start the day. These past few weeks have been a battle for me when it comes to getting things done—switching back and forth between productive motivation and bed-ridden depression. YesterdayContinue reading “This morning I didn’t know how to get up”

It’s a Thursday

And some days you just think a little too much. These are not one of those days. As I try and move into a regular routine of care, I hope the consideration I’ve been taking towards my mind will last. Days like this, I imagine it raining. For some, grey skies and rainfall is nothingContinue reading “It’s a Thursday”

Glad to see everyone’s doing fine…

When thinking about where I’ve been, the things I’ve seen, the people I’ve met; a sense of comfort yet sadness always begins to arise within me. What if I stayed? was something I’d ask a lot. Watching everyone grow older before my eyes yet further from everything I knew them to be, I can beginContinue reading “Glad to see everyone’s doing fine…”

It’s a Monday,

and sometimes I wish it wasn’t. I’ve been filling my life up with so many things I can’t keep track of what’s important anymore… Myself. I’ve been so preoccupied it makes me tired just thinking about it. I want a break and I’m barely making the money to get it. I find myself filling theContinue reading “It’s a Monday,”