Chasing Illusion/Reality

I think back to my first wanting of Enlightenment. At this point, I can’t even imagine what that wanting was. Actually, I take that back. Still within me, resides the longing for liberation. Liberation from what, exactly? The illusion? I question to myself. I think of bhakti and how nice it is to just beContinue reading “Chasing Illusion/Reality”

Where do the days go, if not with you?

I must leave soon so the most I can say, is to love. Love existence. Love it all. There’s nothing more than that and if you do find something else, it very much may be a lie. Where could I go, if not with you? Where do the days go, if not with you? TheContinue reading “Where do the days go, if not with you?”

It isn’t Monday I let pass me,

but the right to stop when I could. Instead I overworked my eyes, making it hard to even write this post. As the leaves begin to fall through the summer heat, I realize no wonder things keep changing around me. I look at the lessons in my life and wonder if I give myself enoughContinue reading “It isn’t Monday I let pass me,”

Glad to see everyone’s doing fine…

When thinking about where I’ve been, the things I’ve seen, the people I’ve met; a sense of comfort yet sadness always begins to arise within me. What if I stayed? was something I’d ask a lot. Watching everyone grow older before my eyes yet further from everything I knew them to be, I can beginContinue reading “Glad to see everyone’s doing fine…”

As my life continues to amaze me,

I wonder what else it has in store. I think about when I first started this blog, and moved out here to the west coast; how different it was then. I think it was on Thursdays I’d post. And it was always some sort of update on my life; what I was eating, what I’veContinue reading “As my life continues to amaze me,”

are you awake?

it’s late and I can’t find the words to say anymore. I think something nice in my head and watch it fly past like a ribbon being pulled by a bird. this isn’t your average blog post and I don’t intend it to be. see, i’ve been wanting to beat myself up lately. i can’tContinue reading “are you awake?”

Take me back to 2017

My birthday is this Friday. I’ll be turning 22. I walked passed someone in the supermarket the other day while having a mental breakdown over the price of canned beans. Don’t mind me, I said. I’m having a mid-mid-life crisis. I’m just more emotional these days than usual and I can’t tell if it’s theContinue reading “Take me back to 2017”

Love & Impermanence

It’s been one year since my love & I found each other. I think back to a poem I wrote around this time pondering the idea of opening up to another being. I wondered if I could ever love again. One year later, not only did I learn to open up my heart , IContinue reading “Love & Impermanence”

Untitled

Recently I’ve been asking myself, what do I truly want in life? If you read my blog posts, you know I’m very much into the whole “enlightenment” thing sort of speak. I’ve mentioned my life goal and purpose, and how I intend to spend the rest of my years. But when other things get inContinue reading “Untitled”

Life is full of bumps Pt. 3

The weather gets warmer while flies are stuck in the house standing on broken pavements slipping through cracks.No one knows what they’re doing and that’s where it all ends.Authorities with no authority triumphantly travel far and through—no breath; but in and out.They’re stacking lives like nothing like money in our pockets that dont seem toContinue reading “Life is full of bumps Pt. 3”