Some days are easier than others

Yesterday, wasn’t one of them. It disappoints me how one small thing can send me so easily down an endless spiral— Spiraling into the evening, into the night, into my sleep, into the next day. Today will be better than any other day because there only is this day, here and now. What will IContinue reading “Some days are easier than others”

Did I even write yesterday?

This morning I was awoken by the call of my boss. My deep slumber played me as a fool, telling me lies and forcing myself to neglect my duties. I apologize. No matter how many times I share the same information with you or myself, I hope that some day it will stick. I triedContinue reading “Did I even write yesterday?”

It’s 4:44 and I’m drowning

Drowning in boxes, drowning in sorrow. Call it seasonal depression, call it my life. Another day, another day. How the sun and moon revolve around one another playing flirtatious games with my heart. It’s 4:44 and nights of no matter run on and on through my mind. People I have no care for; moments notContinue reading “It’s 4:44 and I’m drowning”

Your Existence Matters

For so long now, I believed that I had come to terms with my presence here on Earth. Originally, it wasn’t even a thing I pondered. Around the time I hit my preteen to teen years, I was personally going through a lot. Between having an unstable home and school life, I went through periodsContinue reading “Your Existence Matters”

This morning I didn’t know how to get up

There’s something in the morning that always gets us to get out of bed. I say this as I lay in mine, deciding when to start the day. These past few weeks have been a battle for me when it comes to getting things done—switching back and forth between productive motivation and bed-ridden depression. YesterdayContinue reading “This morning I didn’t know how to get up”

It’s Wednesday and I finally have the energy to write

As Tuesday passed, I realized the day before, I did not write. Monday was hard. The second I thought I was doing good and getting on track, the Universe reminded me I’m on break. To say I’ve been shot down once is an understatement. So here I am on this Wednesday, with enough energy toContinue reading “It’s Wednesday and I finally have the energy to write”

It’s a Thursday

And some days you just think a little too much. These are not one of those days. As I try and move into a regular routine of care, I hope the consideration I’ve been taking towards my mind will last. Days like this, I imagine it raining. For some, grey skies and rainfall is nothingContinue reading “It’s a Thursday”

Are you being Here Now?

Hello My Loves, I see it is time to expand and reach your eyes. My question to you is, are you Being Here Now? This is a concept I’ve learned from my early studies of Zen Buddhism (my first spiritual love). It’s the practice of being in the present moment in order to maintain aContinue reading “Are you being Here Now?”

It’s a Monday,

and sometimes I wish it wasn’t. I’ve been filling my life up with so many things I can’t keep track of what’s important anymore… Myself. I’ve been so preoccupied it makes me tired just thinking about it. I want a break and I’m barely making the money to get it. I find myself filling theContinue reading “It’s a Monday,”

I’ve been spending these past couple of days sick to my stomach

over stupidity. I wish I was joking and maybe it’s my own bullshit. I lay in bed because what else can I do besides work? Recently I’ve taken back up my 日本語 studies. If you’ve been with me since I first arrived in this state 2 years ago, you’d know how hard I was studyingContinue reading “I’ve been spending these past couple of days sick to my stomach”