It’s Monday and I Miss You More Than Ever

Sometimes, Mondays aren’t my favorite. Actually, I don’t think it’s ever been my favorite. On these days particularly though, I miss you more than ever. The moment I wave you good-bye, it’s as if I’m planting a boulder in my chest until the next time I see you. These grey days don’t help either. It’sContinue reading “It’s Monday and I Miss You More Than Ever”

Glad to see everyone’s doing fine…

When thinking about where I’ve been, the things I’ve seen, the people I’ve met; a sense of comfort yet sadness always begins to arise within me. What if I stayed? was something I’d ask a lot. Watching everyone grow older before my eyes yet further from everything I knew them to be, I can beginContinue reading “Glad to see everyone’s doing fine…”

it’s easier when the music is off

and at other times, it’s not. Sometimes I get so caught up in the noise it’s hard to stay in the silence. I don’t know what to write anymore these days. My dad said something to me like, you tell your blog everything you’re doing, yet I find myself at a loss for words everyContinue reading “it’s easier when the music is off”

It’s a Monday,

and sometimes I wish it wasn’t. I’ve been filling my life up with so many things I can’t keep track of what’s important anymore… Myself. I’ve been so preoccupied it makes me tired just thinking about it. I want a break and I’m barely making the money to get it. I find myself filling theContinue reading “It’s a Monday,”

are you awake?

it’s late and I can’t find the words to say anymore. I think something nice in my head and watch it fly past like a ribbon being pulled by a bird. this isn’t your average blog post and I don’t intend it to be. see, i’ve been wanting to beat myself up lately. i can’tContinue reading “are you awake?”

Take me back to 2017

My birthday is this Friday. I’ll be turning 22. I walked passed someone in the supermarket the other day while having a mental breakdown over the price of canned beans. Don’t mind me, I said. I’m having a mid-mid-life crisis. I’m just more emotional these days than usual and I can’t tell if it’s theContinue reading “Take me back to 2017”

Untitled

Recently I’ve been asking myself, what do I truly want in life? If you read my blog posts, you know I’m very much into the whole “enlightenment” thing sort of speak. I’ve mentioned my life goal and purpose, and how I intend to spend the rest of my years. But when other things get inContinue reading “Untitled”

Here’s a late post to add to the collection

Since I’ve come to terms with my current situation (and yes, it took a little bit), I’ve decided to actually state what is happening. So, my lovely readers, I, Natalia Lee, am giving up my first apartment ever. Yes, yes, I know. Why would I do that? Well, if you must know, I never trulyContinue reading “Here’s a late post to add to the collection”

I’ve been spending these past couple of days sick to my stomach

over stupidity. I wish I was joking and maybe it’s my own bullshit. I lay in bed because what else can I do besides work? Recently I’ve taken back up my 日本語 studies. If you’ve been with me since I first arrived in this state 2 years ago, you’d know how hard I was studyingContinue reading “I’ve been spending these past couple of days sick to my stomach”

It’s Monday…

And I think about the things I’ve been saying these past couple of weeks; Things are getting easier yet harder. I wonder if that’s still true. I think about my most recent choice in life, the one mentioned in last weeks post, and wonder how much easier/harder it’s made everything. I feel I’m at theContinue reading “It’s Monday…”