How can I be so hateful?

There’s something interesting about the spiritual path. The further you dive deep, the more you realize how much this reality is a paradox. People begin to follow this route looking for happiness and maybe emotional freedom. Sometimes they get that—to a certain extent. But most of the time, you fall. Far down and hard. OnContinue reading “How can I be so hateful?”

The days don’t get better

Have I said this before? And before the pessimistic ego gets in your way, no, I don’t mean life gets worse. The days don’t get better as in it can’t get any better than this! I know things may happen in our lives that seem like the top of the mountain or the most amazingContinue reading “The days don’t get better”

Before I’m off on another trip,

I bid farewell to my love, Haku, as she lays her body across our wood floors. It’s another day and the more time passes, the more I wonder what’s next. Be here now, be here now. I know this isn’t it and by this and it I mean the endless tasks that pile up throughContinue reading “Before I’m off on another trip,”

I’m Shivering in My Loves Sweater

It’s morning and I am cold, shivering in My Love’s sweater. After a beautiful morning flow and workout, I watch my Haku groom herself at the door of our balcony. She stares out at the possibilities behind the screen while my heart stops a bit at the thought of her getting hurt. A true momContinue reading “I’m Shivering in My Loves Sweater”

It isn’t Monday I let pass me,

but the right to stop when I could. Instead I overworked my eyes, making it hard to even write this post. As the leaves begin to fall through the summer heat, I realize no wonder things keep changing around me. I look at the lessons in my life and wonder if I give myself enoughContinue reading “It isn’t Monday I let pass me,”

There are times I’d rather not

Self-analyzation is a tricky thing. I find it more often than not where I question my own sanity. With all my theories and thoughts of why things happen and why people do the things they do, I question if it’s really me who’s doing the thing that needs to be analyzed. Sometimes I want toContinue reading “There are times I’d rather not”

Untitled

Recently I’ve been asking myself, what do I truly want in life? If you read my blog posts, you know I’m very much into the whole “enlightenment” thing sort of speak. I’ve mentioned my life goal and purpose, and how I intend to spend the rest of my years. But when other things get inContinue reading “Untitled”

As I lay and look at the time,

I almost watch another Monday pass me by. These days I’ve been thinking a lot about the person I’ve made myself to be and wish I never started in the first place. I think about the words and practices of my teachers and wonder if there were any way out. I look at the personContinue reading “As I lay and look at the time,”

Another day passes,

another Monday forgotten. As the days blend in with each other, I lay on the floor and watch them pass by like clouds in the sky. I think about things and wonder if I should be. I wonder what I should be doing, living my human experience or aiming for higher. Or both. I seeContinue reading “Another day passes,”

Here’s a late post to add to the collection

Since I’ve come to terms with my current situation (and yes, it took a little bit), I’ve decided to actually state what is happening. So, my lovely readers, I, Natalia Lee, am giving up my first apartment ever. Yes, yes, I know. Why would I do that? Well, if you must know, I never trulyContinue reading “Here’s a late post to add to the collection”