Another day passes,

another Monday forgotten. As the days blend in with each other, I lay on the floor and watch them pass by like clouds in the sky. I think about things and wonder if I should be. I wonder what I should be doing, living my human experience or aiming for higher. Or both. I seeContinue reading “Another day passes,”

One week later,

And I still can’t find the words to say. I sit in my room and watch the light trickle in passed the silence and trees. I smell scents of old homes through the forest and suns rays while nothing— makes a sound. I’ve been moving this past week in order to enjoy these moments. NoiseContinue reading “One week later,”

Here’s a late post to add to the collection

Since I’ve come to terms with my current situation (and yes, it took a little bit), I’ve decided to actually state what is happening. So, my lovely readers, I, Natalia Lee, am giving up my first apartment ever. Yes, yes, I know. Why would I do that? Well, if you must know, I never trulyContinue reading “Here’s a late post to add to the collection”

I’ve been spending these past couple of days sick to my stomach

over stupidity. I wish I was joking and maybe it’s my own bullshit. I lay in bed because what else can I do besides work? Recently I’ve taken back up my 日本語 studies. If you’ve been with me since I first arrived in this state 2 years ago, you’d know how hard I was studyingContinue reading “I’ve been spending these past couple of days sick to my stomach”

It’s Monday…

And I think about the things I’ve been saying these past couple of weeks; Things are getting easier yet harder. I wonder if that’s still true. I think about my most recent choice in life, the one mentioned in last weeks post, and wonder how much easier/harder it’s made everything. I feel I’m at theContinue reading “It’s Monday…”

There comes the time again where I must make a difficult choice;

One that may change my life drastically—hopefully, for the better. There are times like this that will arise again and again in life. This is a life full of lessons and they’re not always on the path of least resistance. I’ve made choices like this many times before; Running away from home, moving to CaliforniaContinue reading “There comes the time again where I must make a difficult choice;”

I had the chance to write this yesterday.

But instead laid in my bed and thought about it until there were no more thoughts to be had. Same goes for this morning: My alarm woke me up the time it usually does—even my body was ready to awake; yet I stayed where I was; just thinking about it—until there were no more thoughtsContinue reading “I had the chance to write this yesterday.”

Life is full of bumps Pt. 3

The weather gets warmer while flies are stuck in the house standing on broken pavements slipping through cracks.No one knows what they’re doing and that’s where it all ends.Authorities with no authority triumphantly travel far and through—no breath; but in and out.They’re stacking lives like nothing like money in our pockets that dont seem toContinue reading “Life is full of bumps Pt. 3”

Vacation or Practice? Love or Perseverance?

The days have been getting harder and easier to bear as they go by. My heart grows weak from being away from my love, yet goes stronger from all the cardio I’ve been doing to distract myself. I think back to almost a year ago when I spent my first day with him and howContinue reading “Vacation or Practice? Love or Perseverance?”

It hasn’t been easy,

being away from home. It’s funny how home was always a concept I used to ponder. And if it actually had any meaning to me. Nowadays, it seems to be the only place I say I want to go. Funny how things work like that. Home to me now is laying back in my apt,Continue reading “It hasn’t been easy,”