What can I say when there’s nothing to be said?

Articles tell me this blog should be more informative. My gut tells me otherwise. I don’t want to do what the algorithm thinks should be done. I’m here to do what I think should be done. And if that means screaming my heart out into the void in hopes maybe one person hears it, soContinue reading “What can I say when there’s nothing to be said?”

Staying awake is harder than it looks

I mean this in every way possible. It seems as if no matter how much I sleep, there’s still so much more to be done. I will continue with my studies today as my deadline draws closer and closer. Maybe this is the motivation I needed. I’m sitting here drinking chai that’s a bit tooContinue reading “Staying awake is harder than it looks”

I’ve been shown the light

And they wonder why I’ve become to blinded. The breath of My Love rises and falls the same as the oceans crashing waves. It’s Saturday and I am in love. In love with life, in love with the day. I hope you recognize today is beautiful. You are here and that makes it even better.Continue reading “I’ve been shown the light”

A calm mourning

Mourning the night, mourning the break of day. I’m a handful of hours into my morning as synchronistic times approach. 10:10 How are you today? I ask My Lord. I hear nothing. It’s Wednesday already. I ponder where the first 2 days of this week went. Time, as illusionistic as it is, seems to dwellContinue reading “A calm mourning”

I sent you messages and you never replied

Or did I leave them in my drafts? I never really check my inbox anymore and it’s probably the reason I think I’m alone. The world never went inside, I just stopped coming out. Instead I’m swirling in circles with my gaze to the sky wondering where the rain is. And so I pray. PrayContinue reading “I sent you messages and you never replied”

Where are you?

I am here. What time is it? Now. Be Here Now was a concept first introduced to me by one of my teachers, Ram Dass. This concept was introduced to him by his Guru, Neem Karoli Baba. I later heard this reference rephrased in a book called The Way of the Peaceful Warrior. Not onlyContinue reading “Where are you?”

I’m trying my best

Things are getting busier this time around and I’m trying my best. I can’t really say or do anything else other than that. I have to remind myself to do my duties because it is the work that needs to be done. It is what’s being asked of me. I imagine the human born withContinue reading “I’m trying my best”

The days go by and I’m not getting any younger

Tomorrow is my birthday. Mentally, I am preparing to have a wonderful day as I physically work the rest of my hours tonight at my job. The week has been so busy the only time I get a chance to write these posts are mid-day to evening. That’s alright. 5:55. Perfect timing. Everyday, they goContinue reading “The days go by and I’m not getting any younger”

This week I’m reflecting on my life

And how far I’ve actually come. Sometimes I wonder how I even got here. It feels like just a moment ago, I was living in NYC; finishing high school, dreaming California dreams. Now here I am, days from 23, wondering how I’ve survived out here this long. When there’s a will, there’s a way. IContinue reading “This week I’m reflecting on my life”