Journal

A daily journal in the life of I–battles of self, surrender, and purpose

I’m writing this today because

I woke up early and I’m proud. It wasn’t a full blown wake up early, do sadhana and carry out my day; it was more of a, I am awake early, let’s stay up, be happy you’ve accomplished this. And I am! I laid in my bed after the 5:15AM…

Nov 4, 2020

coffee, early morning, gardening, poetry, sadhana, spiritual growth, spirituality, taoism, wake up, writer problems
This morning I didn’t know how to get up

There’s something in the morning that always gets us to get out of bed. I say this as I lay in mine, deciding when to start the day. These past few weeks have been a battle for me when it comes to getting things done—switching back and forth between productive…

Nov 2, 2020

depression, early morning, mental health, motivation, sadhana, self care, self help, self improvement, spiritual practice, wake up, work week
It’s Wednesday and I finally have the energy to write

As Tuesday passed, I realized the day before, I did not write. Monday was hard. The second I thought I was doing good and getting on track, the Universe reminded me I’m on break. To say I’ve been shot down once is an understatement. So here I am on this…

Oct 28, 2020

adolescence, california, depression, existential, family, Holidays, non-attachment, spiritual, travel
I’m thinking about Death tonight

and how I wish I had forever with everyone. I see those around me age with not a thought about it while others watch the clock and grieve every second that passes. Those specifically, whose time is almost up. I think about them and how I’d feel when they’re gone—and…

Oct 21, 2020

buddhism, death, existential, guru, hinduism, impermanence, late night, life, non-attachment, spiritual, upanishads
Even though I found myself writing 3x last week,

I stand true to my commitment of writing on Mondays. Today is the first day of my yoga teacher training. And though I wish I could experience this first hand in-person, I stay locked in my room at 5 AM waiting for the world to be let out their doors.…

Oct 19, 2020

business management, christmas, family, Holidays, pandemic, personal growth, spiritual, work week, yoga

Journal

I’m writing this today because

This morning I didn’t know how to get up

It’s Wednesday and I finally have the energy to write

I’m thinking about Death tonight

Even though I found myself writing 3x last week,