Sometimes it’s frustrating to read back on old pieces, blog posts, journal entries, whatever.
I noticed I’ve been asking the same questions for the last 8 years.
Questions like: What will become of my life? and who will I become? What will I do? Where will I go?
And all I hear when I look back on these questions is aimlessness.
Is that how I intend on spending the rest of my life? Roaming about? Questioning if the moves I’m making are the right ones?
The thing is, since then, I’ve taken so many different routes. I have had so many jumps forward and a thousand steps back.
But within these moves, there has been no purpose behind them other than to prevent the ground I’m standing on from crumbling.
But what if there was no ground to begin with?
What if no matter how stable of a foundation I think I’ve created, it can crumble at any time at God’s will? What would my purpose have been then? Something that would be taken away anyways?
How could I have missed a lesson so pure?
My spiritual journey gained its momentum when I began to study Buddhism.
All things are impermanent, all things are fleeting; a fundamental teaching that I had realized and accepted at 13 years old.
This I knew and still, I’ve been trying to build my life on top of something that was never there!
How ironic.
But there is something I do know for sure;
God is Eternal.
God is never fleeting.
God always was and forever will be.
I’m not writing this to tell you to give up on your dreams.
What I’m saying is if you want to build a stable foundation for yourself, build it upon God.
Build it on the only thing that is for sure in this world.
And you will never question your next move in life.
You’ll know every choice you make is Divinely supported and even if it is a “wrong” choice that may crumble, God will be there to catch you—every time.
I learned this, this week, after questioning for so long.
Every moment, every move I’ve made, was made to lead me here.
And I’m so blessed for that.
Thank you Lord.
Amen.
–Natalia