I’ve noticed I’ve become quite cold. I feel my heart fighting to open after having closed it for some time.
I feel myself crawling back to Love.
Something that’s always bothered me is my tendency to relive moments in my mind, way after they’ve happened already. Even years after. And now I’m beginning to wonder if it’s for good reason.
See, these memories are usually of when I was upset about something; either something someone said or even something I witnessed.
Quickly, my ego rushes in first; hotheaded. It says an even better comeback than I did the first time (if I did have one the first time) or something more hurtful to the other person.
Immediately, my loving self, the mediator, steps in and holds her back as if ice were to reach over to an ember and hold it within it’s loving embrace.
How can I see this with Love?
How can I be the light in this situation?
How can I be proof of a loving God?
And my favorite lately, What would Jesus have done?
And I repent for my initial thoughts.
I pray that when another situation arises, I can take a step back before anything and ask myself these questions before reacting.
I’m not sure if my mind will ever stop going over things that’ve happened. I pray, of course, that that day will come. However, until I’ve trained my monkey mind and have learned fully to live in Love, I can only expect these occasions to arise again.
Dear reader, I ask of you today, how can you live in Love?
How can you practice opening your heart?
How can you be proof of a loving God?
Shalom
-Natalia