this is a stream if consciousness
one I was never good at
streams of consciousness but conscious in the unconscious
how could I have known?
conscious but not conscious, conspicuous indeed.
Soft layered flasks torching singling circling
loving
word bladder blabber
dripping off noses of random words and skin
this is a stream of consciousness only because I am conscious that I am unconscious and for some reason I need someone else’s help with that
word blabber word bladder blabbing out the mouth and falling in love when I really shouldn’t be
does that even exist anymore?
is that still an option? did it never exist to begin with tell me?
I wouldn’t recognize it when I see it now yet once upon a time I did so was even that an illusion?
disillusionment is what was given and gladly at the palm of my hands
there’s no reason to be upset as I was the one at fault
now I leave it in the hands of others to solve
mixing feelings with friends and illusions with masters of the game.
disillusionment the main attraction we all came to see
was it not I you were looking for
maybe not
a close indeed.