After a long talk with ChatGPT, I realized I’m not living my full, true, and honest self on the internet.
What I’ve shared on here has only been the things about myself and my life that I’ve been interested in sharing; but not so much myself as a whole being.
This has also been reflecting in my writing (or lack there of).
As I continue to morph through the many versions of me, my life as a writer should morph along with that.
Instead, I’ve let the pain of my past lives steal my words and passion.
I’ve spent too much time these past couple of years trying to do the things I thought I was supposed to; being the person I thought I was.
Trust in the Lord with all your heart
Proverbs 3:5
and lean not on your own understanding
Sometimes, God leads you to places in order to complete tasks, not to linger.
Most of the time, we can’t tell the difference.
I’m becoming the person God wants me to be and not the person I think He wants me to be.
I’m doing the things in my life God is calling me to and not what I think He’s calling me to (or trying to at least, I’m still learning the difference).
I’m doing the things my heart calls me to do when there is nothing left to do; write.
And removing everything else.
Dear 2022 me, sorry girly. We’re just trying to follow God and do what He calls you to in the moment.
And right now, He’s calling me to be honest in my being and wait upon His word.
I’ll be (as always) trying to make this space home again.
A place my soul can rest on paper (or on the internet, you get it);
and a place wandering (inter)souls can rest as well.
Seek God, my friends! His glory is wonderful and shall be shined upon you!
– Natalia