I’ve been thinking about this whole new era of me and my writing and it feels like such a dream.
The thing is, I’m working on tricky waters. Who manages to have something like this and actually get something out of—and there it is; my subtle (or not-so subtle) obsession with gaining something out of doing the things I love.
While trying to escape the one thing that put me here, I find myself crawling back to old habits–in live action, on the blog lol.
If you’re just tuning in, my name is Natalia and this is me trying to get back into writing while also trying to submit to God’s purpose for me (current status: unknown but we’re thriving).
Anyways, back to my whole new era of writing; how do we even get there?
I’m not really interested in screaming into the void. I want someone to hear me.
I guess that just means I need to say something worth hearing–and not yap so much!
But what can I say? God is good all the time? We already know this.
What can I say that God hasn’t already said before. What can I do other than be a reflection of His Word?
I read something today that said, the silversmith knew the silver was pure because he could see his reflection.
But how can I be God’s reflection when I myself am impure?
Refinement, was a word used.
We must be molded and mended; struck with a hammer under hot temperatures.
We must be refined.
So until then,
I will write my soul away, look for the beautiful, and bask in God’s glory.
I will sin and I will sin and I will repent and I will repent.
I’ll live the purpose God has for me by leaving it all into His hands.
And I will be surrender to what is.
In this moment
and in the next.
Until next time,
Natalia