While I was on the train this morning, I couldn’t help but to think about those bible readers I seem to always find sitting across from me. They’re always reading a tiny bible and making facial expressions like they just read it for the first time.
Do they just re-read the same book over and over just because they like it so much? Are they trying to memorize it?
Then, 70% of the people on the train are on their phones almost the whole time. I usually see them typing which I don’t understand since the majority of the train ride is underground with no service. So what are they even typing?
People always look at me like they have something to say but always end up backing out. I’m not saying that in way that sounds like I think everyone wants to fight me, but maybe they want to confess something, or just vent to a stranger.
I’d listen.
I can’t speak for others but I’m sure if they were to approach any other stranger with their problems, they wouldn’t really bother to listen. So the best stranger to talk to on the train would be me, or Adrian because he’s great with strangers.
I’m better with complete strangers oppose to people who already have a preconceived idea of who I am due to mutual relationships with people that actually do know me.
But then again, you don’t ever fully know someone, right?
I always wonder about the person who sits across from me. In my head I’m like, “what’s your story?”.
It really is all just a story once it’s in the past.
So why even think about it?
To have a good cry and/or laugh?
Is it like reading your favorite book over and over again like the bible readers do?
Do you hope the ending will turn out different the more you read it?
Well, will it?

A boy maybe 14 or so, came on the train and stood by the pole like anyone would if they couldn’t find a seat; and he dressed as if he wasn’t from here, but I felt like I knew him.
Was it a familiar fashion that I’ve seen before,
or was it just him?

The night I decided to watch another ceiling breaker movie (a movie that makes me feel like I can touch the sky), ended up sending me to a random playlist which led me to it’s first song which was, “You Remind Me of Home”.

At 11:11 pm, words spoken by Ben Gibbard told me:

“In a suburban town with nothing to do,
Patiently waiting for something to happen
But the foundation is crumbling
Becoming one with the ground
While you lay there in slumber
You’re wasting your life”

as I was literally sitting on my “thrift store couch” (as quoted from the song), waiting for some random miraculous thing to happen to me and change my life around.
But my foundation was crumbling and it was time for me to stop sitting around.
So why was I sitting around just waiting?
Well, it’s pretty cold now here in New York and pretty late too…
but that’s no excuse.
I won’t wait anymore.

I heard some kid in my class say today, “that’s the key to success!” after learning that someone handed in their essay before Christmas break.
There are plenty of keys to success and they’re all laid out right in front of you.
I just depends on if you decide to use them.

Well here it goes…

With this being my first post, I really don’t know what to say other than introduce myself correctly. 
My name is Natalia and I am 17 years old. 
This may not be your usual blog, or maybe it is, I don’t really know much about this but all I know is that I can write freely on here and then maybe someone will read it. 
I live in NYC and really, its not all that. I mean yeah its pretty at night and they have public transportation down to a tee, but being born and half-raised here doesn’t let me enjoy all of it’s features. Then again, I’m only 17 and I still have half a year till I can actually by a bong on my own. Any city at night is pretty to me though. 
Night time is just my time to be outside even though I never am anymore. I used to skate all night when I lived in Scranton and other places that the streets weren’t busy at night. I stopped once I moved back to New York two summers ago. It’s mostly because I’m more likely to bump into a weirdo at night over here than I would over in the other cities and towns I’ve lived in. Don’t get me wrong, weirdos are everywhere
Heck, I’m one of them. But if you really think about it, so is everyone else. 
I have a boyfriend named Adrian and we’ve been together since September of 2014. 
We’ve been talking since freshman year and finally got together when I moved back to NY the summer before junior year. 
By the way, I’m in my senior year now. I tried dropping out last month after skipping school for 2 months straight. I honestly hate school only for the simple reasons of social pressure, ignorance in most of the people there, and the fact that most of the stuff they teach us is complete bullshit. 
They literally feed us lies and students eat it up because they never learned anything more than to make sure they graduate, go to college, get a 9-5, and hate the rest of their lives. 
School was never really a priority to me, only college was. I’ve been wanting to go to college since I was younger because of all the banging parties I’ve seen in movies. 
It wasn’t until this past summer where I’ve come to realize, I can party without college, I hate school, and I hate stressing over exams that wont mean anything to me in a few years
A lot of people will disagree with me and try and talk me into college but it will never happen. I am going to own my own business (multiple businesses) and I don’t need a degree for that. The internet is literally the key to everything; almost everything you’ve ever wanted to learn is at the palms of your hands. 
When I graduate, if I do, I’m gonna finally get a stable job and save up to get out of here. I don’t want to stay in the US because 2016 is completely unpredictable to me and I don’t know how this country will be by the time I’m on my own. All I know is that I’ve always wanted to move to California since I was younger. I want to get my Marijuana growers license so I can grow, in my opinion, the most beautiful and helpful plant in the world. 
My life is actually pretty awesome even though I complain so much. I really shouldn’t..
Life is so beautiful its just literally all about how you spend it. 
We are infinite, We are young, how can there be anything more perfect?
Try going out at night when the streets are empty;
be all that you are.

I know you’ll stay.