All mornings feel the same.

Whether you’re in downtown Long Beach, or the Lower East Side of Manhattan in New York City.

Its 6:22 in the morning and I am walking to work.

My shift may start at 6:45, but I couldn’t take my chances with the bus.

It’s foggy down here in LB, so when I first walked out, I was surrounded by cloudy skies of pink, pondering the looks of a clear day.

I feel as if I could get used to early shifts like this;

Waking up early, taking a shower, feeling refreshed, and listening to the birds awake the world.

Oh, and of course the sunrises.

To all those who awake this early every day, I hope this is your favorite part.

I’ve been reading books on love letters and playwrights, wondering if I’ll ever be as great of a writer as I intend to be.

For now you can find me behind the counter at an organic juice bar, trying to pass the time.

I hope you all have an amazing day

-Natalia

“Zines” Step 1:

So as I said in one of my previous posts, I was thinking about starting my own “zine”.

Well,

I decided I will.

They are quite popular here in Long Beach—maybe California in general.

For those who don’t know what a zine is,

they are handmade magazines/comics, usually duplicated with a copy machine, and brought together with some staples (but not always).

These zines can be filled with anything someone wants to put out into the world.

Here are some image examples on Google.

So here’s what I decided should be Step 1, if you’re thinking about starting your own:

1. Gathering Information and Ideas

This includes learning more about the zine community, how to actually go about making one, getting inspiration from other zinesters, and compiling ideas for your zine.

Also during this period, I will be building my writing and drawing skills.

This is optional but personally I would just like to enhance these skills.

Check out your local library, they may carry some zines! Or even books about them.

The library I first really discovered zines in recently, was the Downtown Long Beach Main Library.

I also checked out Whatcha Mean, What’s a Zine? by Mark Todd & Esther Pearl Watson.

It basically gives you the run down on how to make your own zine.

You can also look up how-to’s on YouTube.

Subscribe to get updates on the next steps!

We’ll talk soon guys!

-Natalia

I’ve been thinking a lot about my life path,

And how much of a crazy ride it’s been.

I’ve known that as a writer, I’m supposed to get out there and gain some experiences to tell the world about how I’m trying to piece together a universe that has all the pieces scattered and hidden in plain sight.

But shit it’s been a crazy ride. And I’m not even 20 yet!

Besides that, I’ve been feeling like I’ve been playing things too safe lately.

Yeah because renting out a room for $650 a month, across the country, from everyone you know, with no job, and only $100 left in your account, is playing things too safe.

Okay, maybe not too safe.

But I mean simple things, like not wanting to jump down from a ledge because it’s a few feet off the ground and you might snap an ankle or something. That kind of safe.

But I’ve been thinking a lot about well, what if I had jumped off the ledge?

What if I did snap my ankle, and had to go to the hospital, and hop around Long Beach on crutches while still looking for a job?

How great of a story would that have been?

Not even to write in a book or anything like that but just to tell.

Not even to tell! But just for yourself..?

How great would that have been…?

I’ve been thinking a lot about life paths and which one I should take;

Should I ride it out like I always have, or start to play it safe?

I’ve come to realize, through my spiritual travels, that us humans are here to do human things.

And that means jumping off the ledge just because you were too scared, or pushed into it, or just felt like it.

Have fears,

and face them.

Just for today.

Natalia

When your at your lowest, the only way is up

We’ve been here for about a week now and things couldn’t be any better/worse.

As water overboils from the pot, spaghetti seems to be the only thing I’ve been eating—

Besides this really great fish I (we) discovered called Swai, which I cook with rice.

Besides that, my love has no employment as well as myself–except it may be a little easier for me to get a job.

Soon I’ll be selling cold-pressed juices,

or checking in new guests,

or both.

All I know is that the future is bright and I have no doubt about it.

For the first few days, I kept waking up imagining this was the actual dream that I could wake myself up from.

Responsibility,

independence—

I thought I was living it big but this is a whole new level.

Amazing and scary is what I like to call it.

I’ve been finding myself doodling lately on bus rides to unknown places.

I found some “zines” yesterday which has me thinking I should make one.

I’ll be picking up a sketch book and tools soon to start.

I hope you’ve been feeling well.

Confidence is key.

See ya

Natalia

Goodbye Monrovia, Hello Long Beach!

I’ve spent most of my life moving from place to place.

Back then it may not have seemed like it, but it was nice.

Meeting new people, seeing new sights, getting comfortable in uncomfortable situations; all worth it.

Now here I am 19 years old—finally on my own, still moving around.

It’s even better now though!

My Love & I taking on the world.

As of right now, we’re transporting what’s left of our belongings from Monrovia, CA to Long Beach, CA.

Yep, we finally got our own place.

With only $350 left in my bank account, and rent due the first of March, oh yeah;

it’s on.

Oh but Monrovia!

How I’ll miss your beautiful mountains surrounding me!

Climbing the hardest of trails just to get a look at your streams and falls!

Oh how I’ll miss you.

It’s not forever though.

For now, I’ll be roaming the classifieds and streets of Long Beach, searching for a job.

Send us luck guys—-we could use it!

Hello LBC!

Natalia

I haven’t written in a while

And I knew at some point it’d come to this.

Today I had my Level 1 Reiki attunement ceremony and it was amazing;

I spent the day with my love in meditation and nature, hiking through the mountains of Monrovia Canyon Park.

Soon we will be relocating to Long Beach, CA, to spend some time by the ocean and have a sense of freedom.

In other news, the Chinese New Year is among us! And the celebration in Los Angeles will take place this saturday!

Stay tuned for those pictures.

I haven’t received much love on the page due to my lack of attention towards it.

My mind just goes stale sometimes.

I’ve been thinking about painting a lot lately.

We’ll talk soon!

I promise.

P.S. We started Shippuuden!!

Natalia

I’ve been having some crazy dreams lately

And I’m not quite sure what they mean.

Some beautiful, some disturbing;

Receiving message from the beyond.

I’ve been learning things from children,

finding their souls more pure than mine.

Trying to wake up from a dream that only ends when I’m asleep—

What does it mean, what does it mean?

I see mice in the shadows

hopping around the playground as if they know;

Sitting in silence,

Silence–dark.

Being so still that maybe one day

they’ll invite me to play.

I follow the lead of a 3 year old,

for she knows way more than I;

When have the children with eyes so much brighter–

seem to have gotten wiser?

I’m sitting still to pass the time–

Trying to empty my mind;

Staring into babies eyes–

seeing the universe in mine,

surrounded by blatant signs.

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