What an Auspicious Week

I’ll be 23 soon

and watching the days and numbers pass me by is like watching the clock tick in fast forward.

The week leading up to my birthday always feels like a special one—

no matter what I do.

Every part of me holds in the urge to tell the world while I remind My Love over and over.

How much more exciting could it get?

At first, I was reluctant to accept the quickness of this day’s arrival.

I don’t want to get any older, I’ll admit that.

The child within me cherishes the scolding I heard growing up: Don’t rush to grow up! You’ll regret it later.

And I never did. To this day, I don’t.

To some, getting older is exciting. They feel more—adult.

I, on the other hand, feel as if I’m running out of “time”.

It’s no longer, there’s so many things I want to accomplish; but more of, how far have I come with my Sadhana?

I feel like every moment that passes that I am not working on myself or my devotion, is a moment wasted.

Am I wrong to feel this way?

How can I enjoy the things others do when all I want is You?

I’ll be 23 soon and it sort of feels as if I’m turning 21 all over again;

Getting older, watching the time pass me by while I sit, sit, sit.

Oh, how the clock ticks.

-Natalia

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