I say this with no substance to back it up.
Only that today, I woke up in a good mood.
Despite my going to bed at 2AM and waking up at 6, I awoke easily and effortlessly.
Okay well, maybe not that easily BUT, I woke up without an alarm—surprisingly.
It’s another grey day here in LA and by this time, I’m already used to it.
This morning is a nice grey though; moist & nourishing.
My mantra today: Self-Discipline
I will not drink coffee today. I can go on with my day, without it. I am awake and aware naturally.
Honestly guys, this really has never been a problem for me before.
I believe it’s a mixture of needing something “comforting” to drink when sleepy or sad.
The sweet flavorful taste comforts my heart and soul at the first sip.
Just thinking about it enhances the craving…
Anyways, I think it has become some sort of coping mechanism for me.
I’ve been so busy with work, running my business, and trying to finish the multiple courses that I’m in.
I guess this “stress” has been dwelling within me without revealing itself to my conscious mind and instead making me drink coffee to suppress it.
This is my guess.
Because honestly, I don’t drink it to wake me up. I really don’t.
If anything, it gives me more anxiety than I usually have! Not that I have a lot but after coffee, you can bet I do.
Okay, that’s my thoughts for now.
My name is Natalia;
I’m here in LA where it’s a little cold and grey, thinking about coffee…
What are you doing today, dear reader?
I’d love to know.