It’s Tuesday and I didn’t write yesterday

I didn’t write yesterday even though I tried.

My morning filled my time and the night brought me no words.

Instead I pondered the idea of writing for someone else and how that could be.

I want to make money off writing yet I do it as if it were a chore and cry at those who actually thrive.

It’s Tuesday and I’m on my way to work.

And as the work load begins to pile on I sit in anxiousness counting my dollars and bills.

To fear is to not have faith in God, I continously remind myself.

So I pray,

and pray,

and pray,

and leave the candles burning while I sleep because only a few things scare me and it seems as if burning alive isn’t one of them.

And I hope I become a good writer.

And I wish for My Love’s wellbeing and serenity.

And I wonder what to do next—

watching my work pile high,

my studies;

watching shows that have no matter counting the seconds on the clock as I drift into slumber while my heart pounds to the ticking reminding me of all the things that could be done and instead I sit and try to breathe–try to forget–try to..

Do something.

I gotta do something,

I say.

So for now, I’m on my way to work.

And I’m thinking of writing and how I wish I wrote more.

And how there’s much to do.

And how I don’t know how I’ll get by sometimes.

And I look at My Love because he’s so sweet. And gentle.

And he calms my mind. And shows me love. And I wish,

we can just go already.

Natalia

*late publish, sorry!*

Published by Natalia Lee

Natalia Lee is a spiritual mentor, writer, and artist. She embodies many types of spiritual practice, one importantly being the Taoist principle of living in harmony with the flow of nature. Another is her expression of devotion toward Source through Bhakti Yoga. At 19 years old, Natalia moved from her hometown in New York City to Los Angeles to begin her pilgrimage of world travel and spiritual inquisition. Since then, she has tackled many personal achievements including the publishing of multiple poetry collections, e-books, physical art pieces, a successful podcast, and personal blog.

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