I almost watch another Monday pass me by.
These days I’ve been thinking a lot about the person I’ve made myself to be and wish I never started in the first place.
I think about the words and practices of my teachers and wonder if there were any way out.
I look at the person I’ve made myself to seem like but the truth is I’m way beyond.
No ideals and profiles can create the truth that I am.
I know in this reality that we must create some sort of identity for ourselves but is there one where I can remain unknown?
Spirituality and the celebration of my true nature is something I’m very fond of and hold dearly to my heart.
But is there room for the human I have become?
The one who holds memories and traumas enough to carve a persona?
Who adapts likes and dislikes,
laughs and cries,
yes’s and no’s?
I think about the words and practices of my teachers and how wonderfully they flow through the Tao like loose leaves in the wind.
I think about how those same teachings can bring me to my knees and make me cry in submission.
I love you, I love you, I love you.
Yet the things the Earth has created—no, that the humans have created; make me spin in awe.
How can I resist?
Where does the human experience begin?
Knowing where you come from or experiencing where you are now?
What am I to do now with both things on my shoulders?
How will I ever know without asking myself first?
It’s a curious thing to imagine and it’s one I’ll sit on for a while.
Until then, I remain silent to those who think they know me and watch others fight over the world.
The Tao says,
“Do you think you can take over the universe and improve it?
I do not believe it can be done.
The universe is sacred.
You cannot improve it.
If you try to change it, you will ruin it.
If you try to hold it, you will lose it.“
“…Therefore the Sage avoids extremes, excesses, and complacency.”
I hope you keep in mind the emptiness of lands that laid before us.