There comes the time again where I must make a difficult choice;

One that may change my life drastically—hopefully, for the better.

There are times like this that will arise again and again in life.

This is a life full of lessons and they’re not always on the path of least resistance.

I’ve made choices like this many times before;

Running away from home,

moving to California with barely any money,

coming here, to this house, and staying with someone I barely know in order for my safety;

and now this one.

I won’t go into detail but to put it as well as possible, I am faced with the choice to give up something I have worked hard to achieve and that has brought me security ever since.

The reason I am aiming to give it up is simply because of that!

As an heir of the Buddha, one of my greatest lessons learned is to remain unattached.

As a follower of The Way, I’ve learned I must not be moved by loss or gain.

The only reason fear is brought on by this choice is because of the Unknown.

We all slightly fear the Unknown.

I remain attached to my achievement so much I fear the unknown of giving it up. I took pride in what I’ve gained.

So I’m making the conscious choice of pushing myself in to that space and giving up what I have become attached to.

In the past situations I mentioned before, I have never fallen from my choices.

And even if I did, I know the only other option is up.

In my podcast and conversations with others on self-achievement, I mention the Unknown frequently and how there is no growth elsewhere.

We must push ourselves outside of our comfort zones.

In my case, it can be dangerous; maybe even pushing me back all the way to the beginning—

But I do not fear it.

I know my journey, my destiny.

Whether I’m pushed forward or back, it is all part of the same path.

So this road that lies ahead, I do not fear it.

In a constant struggle on whether or not it’s the right one, I probably read every oracle card that lies in this house.

One card, I have pulled three times in a row since last week; telling me I have found what I’ve been looking for.

The rest, telling me to follow my intuition.

The I Ching, a reading I only pull regarding my destiny in major cases, read that it sees my strength to want to become more; pushing myself into the unknown in order to become stronger—and I am right for doing so. And no matter what, my progress in aligning myself will remain.

Another told me to trust God.

As a practitioner of Bhakti Yoga, how could I not?

With everything that is happening in the world right now, a lot of people are making choices they never thought they’d have to. This is what my current Master told me.

In her comforting encouragement to do what’s best, I feel no fear.

I can imagine the choices people are making right now.

If you are one of them, don’t be afraid.

Growth does not happen in the space of comfort. No matter how scary it seems.

As I contemplate what lies ahead, I’m sure I’m one amongst the rest.

I hope this time has been easy for you.

And if not, I hope you have to strength to pull through.

Just know I am here with you.

And no matter what, we’ll get through this together.

No matter how far apart we may seem, we are one in the same.

Pushing. Fighting. Becoming stronger.



Published by Natalia Lee

Natalia Lee is a spiritual mentor, writer, and artist. She embodies many types of spiritual practice, one importantly being the Taoist principle of living in harmony with the flow of nature. Another is her expression of devotion toward Source through Bhakti Yoga. At 19 years old, Natalia moved from her hometown in New York City to Los Angeles to begin her pilgrimage of world travel and spiritual inquisition. Since then, she has tackled many personal achievements including the publishing of multiple poetry collections, e-books, physical art pieces, a podcast, and a personal blog & brand.

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