My menstrual cycle is finally aligned with the moon’s.
I’m not too sure if that has anything to do with why I’ve been feeling this way but it could be.
The Red Moon Cycle, they call it.
The cycle of the shamans, ancient healers, and keepers of wisdom.
I have been feeling more in-tune lately maybe because my actions are finally aligning with my words.
I must remember to take it easy this week and not push myself too hard like I have been.
I watched the last episode of Avatar: The Last Airbender last night and it was so fulfulling. If you haven’t seen it I highly suggest it.
I’ve seen it way too many times before but it just gets me every time.
It’s like being shown your own destiny in front of your face and feeling nothing but the strong call to fulfill it.
Even though it’s a show, a kid’s animation at that, it means a lot to me.
Another one would be Sinbad, the Japanese anime.
His mission I could say is my own; and there’s nothing more comforting than that.
Watching the avatar contact his past lives for guidance really had me thinking last night about my ancestors and how maybe I’ve been hearing their call louder than ever recently.
I wonder what it could all mean but I continue to do the work and not wander too far.
I’ve done that way too many times.
I hear people talk about how they’ll be when their old or when they might have kids and I’m just not so sure about who I’ll be at that time. Let alone what I’ll even want.
I wonder how far this path will take me or if it’s only a child’s dream.
I hear the Sages are childlike. Curious and agile through life.
I wonder how I’ll be. If I’ll end up like the rest or live out a dream that seems more or less real overtime.
It feels lonely, it does.
I assume maybe I’m just crazy and I’ll find my way sooner or later.
Instead I find myself awaking in the early morning, sitting in front of the things that remind me of home, and cry my heart out at the contentment of going back.
A home I had no idea existed until I saw a glimpse of it.
Since then, I’ve wanted nothing more.
So I’ll continue to do so.
I’ll cry, and I’ll laugh at it all.
I’ll train my body harder than ever as I train my mind to obliterate doubt and hateful thoughts all while aligning my soul with purpose and the Divine.
I will create; I will preserve; and I will destroy.
I’ll do it all because there is nothing else for me to do.
When you wake up every morning with the same feeling, with the same strong pull that tugs on your heart so strongly it makes you scream out loud in tears–tell me;
Wouldn’t you follow it too?