As much effort as I may seem to put in, the feeling of non movement always seems to dawn on me.
Am I doing what I should be?
But am I really?
From what I’ve studied and experienced so far, everything is happening exactly the way it should be; always.
So why do I feel so stagnant?
My “resolution”, not only for the new year but for life, is to stick with my practice.
If you read or keep up with my blog, you probably already know that my “main life goal” is to attain Enlightenment. Whatever that means.
As I’ve been taking my studies and practices more seriously this time around, the main thing I’m trying to convince myself is that Enlightenment is not the goal.
One would say, of course not! The journey is!
And I wonder if it took a New Year’s resolution to get me to see that.
Having a goal as such is probably mainly coming from the Ego–even if you say, “but it’s for the benefit of all sentient beings!”
Is it though?
Recently I’ve taken up Bhakti Yoga. A form of yoga focused on devotion and surrender, something I’ve been coming more aligned with.
In this, I’ve learned even throughout my asana practice, that everything I do is not for me, but for God, or The Universe.
From the moment I wake up to when I practice my asanas, chant my mantras, read my books, care for others, speak my truth—I do it not only to live out my Dharma, but because I’m devoting it all to the World.
There’s a fine line between this and doing it for a goal.
Doing it for the attainment of something, such as Enlightenment.
My actions aren’t for the goal and I understand that now.
It is the journey. It is the practice itself.
I will be meditating on this for a while.
What about you?
Have you made any resolutions?
Tell me about them.