I spend many moments throughout my days,
feeling the slight anxiousness
of a fast-paced society.
I think about leaving the city–as I have before;
I imagine my self living a penniless life,
somewhere in the mountains,
surviving off the land.
This is how I keep the awareness of my stillness, always. I think to myself.
Yet I know that nature is forever with me–even in moments like these.
So why does this feeling dawn on me?
In an advancing society of technology and power, its hard to avoid the things we wish we could;
And my initial reaction to this is,
Well, this isn’t the natural way.
We could do things differently.
And I want to run away from it all.
What I need to understand is that whatever is happening in the world right now, is meant to be happening.
I was born into this time period for a reason whether I choose to accept it or not.
So I can go and run and hide in the forest with my rocks and pebbles but the truth of the matter is I wouldn’t get to experience what I came here for.
I wouldn’t be able to experience what I have already;
the music I can only hear underground,
the art painted only by those with a wider mind;
All of this,
I wouldn’t find anywhere else,
other than Here,
other than Now.
And I need to remember that.