I’m 21 now, I should be happy!

In my Downtown LA apartment, I pace back and forth with thoughts of future endeavors running through my brain;

I should be traveling

I should be writing

I should be writing I should be writing I should be writing.

Poetry doesn’t sell anymore what am I saying.

Maybe I should work on fiction;

yeah fiction.

Ugh, no.

I’d rather die a poet than trying to survive as a novelist.

Lately I’ve been sitting in my yoga poses, deep in contemplation.

It makes me anxious when I think of all the things I’m not doing though my whole purpose is to tell you to Be Here Now.

Instead I’m the one who’s over there, later.

As I watch the people come and go with my zine in hand, I wonder if our hearts ever meet at a point through those pages.

I think about projects I may never start, or some I have started but don’t want to finish.

It’s sad to be alone at 21 with nothing but your thoughts and a paper and pen, yet I still seem to make it work.

I imagine myself writing some column for The New Yorker or maybe even the Downtown LA Weekly; but I’ve never been that much into journalism.

If you haven’t seen yet, I’ve already released 2 poetry collections on my Wattpad since I turned the big 2-1.

One, a finished product filled with my thoughts of growing up while the other is an open journal updated frequently with random poems and writings.

I’ve been trying to find a way to get back onto the blog but with a better approach in which I can stay committed to it.

Until then, I try to write as much as possible while serving LA their weekly meals and coffee.

Cheers to 21!


Published by Natalia Lee

Natalia Lee is a spiritual mentor, writer, and artist. She embodies many types of spiritual practice, one importantly being the Taoist principle of living in harmony with the flow of nature. Another is her expression of devotion toward Source through Bhakti Yoga. At 19 years old, Natalia moved from her hometown in New York City to Los Angeles to begin her pilgrimage of world travel and spiritual inquisition. Since then, she has tackled many personal achievements including the publishing of multiple poetry collections, e-books, physical art pieces, a podcast, and a personal blog & brand.

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