My sleep schedule consists of you

It’s 11:56 pm and I’m waking up from dreams that seem way too symbolic for me.

I’m trying to play Xbox when I know I should be writing; seems to be the only thing that comes to mind as I look for that damn controller…

It’s in the other room.

So instead I open my laptop and pour words down on keys even though there’s not much to say at this hour.

Why won’t anyone answer me back? I skim my inbox for responses toward my desperate pleas.

Maybe it’s because I keep mentioning I’m 19. That has to be it.

I don’t dare send out new ones until I build up the courage again to do so. This is a process.

Let’s face it LA doesn’t want me.

No, they wanted 2016 me, straight out of high school with a good head on my shoulders that would only survive the stardom Hollywood can bring me.

So I sit and ponder dreams I had of independence, and babies, and kittens.

With nothing to write, I find myself regurgitating words I can’t bring my mouth to say since my love is still asleep and I want to play Xbox before he wakes.

I’ll bid you all adieu with hopes you find solace in my words even if they may not mean much.

I hope life is treating you well.

-Natalia

Published by Natalia Lee

Natalia Lee is a spiritual mentor, writer, and artist. She embodies many types of spiritual practice, one importantly being the Taoist principle of living in harmony with the flow of nature. Another is her expression of devotion toward Source through Bhakti Yoga. At 19 years old, Natalia moved from her hometown in New York City to Los Angeles to begin her pilgrimage of world travel and spiritual inquisition. Since then, she has tackled many personal achievements including the publishing of multiple poetry collections, e-books, physical art pieces, a successful podcast, and personal blog.

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